Hey guys, I am writing as much a "Dear Diary" as for this "Tension Journal" this again comes back to learning to describe what I observe, especially in those moments of tension. My last entry sort of touched on an introspective angle, and like Jill says "Its all material." I agree so I am going to follow that angle for a little while.
Since my move I am living with my best friend and her boy friend. The boy friend "E." For the case of this Blog, wanted me to move, and my best friend "A." happily encouraged me with his support.
Three days after I arrive he is telling A. that he feels like a third wheel and she is just disgusted by it.
What I see is different, what I want to say is different.
In my introverted little world, he couldn't be more transparent.
And this is where it becomes apparent that I am a rare female, having grown up with more males than I can count on both hands... When A. told me about this, I understood completely, and this is the break down, its up to him to prove that I am wrong.
E. wanted me here, not so A. wouldn't be alone, and not because he likes me at all. He wanted me here for money, with me here he doesn't have to take care of A. who he won't let work, he knows that I'll buy her things, I'll take on half the apartment expenses, and help take some of the stress off her by doing chores and he'll get laid more often. He plans on guilt-ing her into not spending time with me, or specifically unsupervised time. E. tell's A. that he wants me to have the same days off that he does so we can "do things together on the weekends." I hear "I don't like you being alone with her." He is muscling in on my time with her so that she won't have any freedom, so A. won't have any friends outside his little domain. But I see, I can call it what it is, sabotage, abuse and jealousy.
The Tension is thick enough around him that I can cut it with a knife.
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